I can’t draw. But I’ve become very skilled at wearing a smile. Even when I feel broken inside you won’t see me without a smile. I AM a professional mother and wife after all. It’s my duty to keep it together.
Let’s be honest, no one can remain THAT collected for long. There are days when your giving runs dry and you’re exhausted from trying to stay afloat. Well, yesterday, was one of those days. Whenever I get stuck in reverse and need some direction, I go to my place of refuge. This usually means sneaking off to a room to be alone with my music. Yep, I still revert to the same thing that helped me survive my teen years. MUSIC. Last night was no exception. I turned to Coldplay’s “Fix You” for deliverance.
Music does it for me. So much so that I have seriously considered creating a separate blog to showcase my immeasurable love for this art form. There are countless songs that bypass the cynical parts of my mind and pierce straight through my HEART. Coldplay’s lyrics, in particular, have been known to penetrate several layers deep. I feel like this song was written just for me. I must have pressed the repeat button at least ten times, and each time, I could feel more and more tension being released from my body.
You have no idea how happy I was to have fifteen minutes ALONE to recharge for a new week.
While I’m not completely “fixed” after my Coldplay session, I am on the mend. We all need fixing here and there, right? And, we all rely on different methods for relieving stress. Some people go for a long drive or curl up with a good book to take the edge off. I listen to music. Or, I have a richly blended Malbec to help me relax before bed. Though I often view wine as my double edge sword because I end up falling asleep by 8:00 p.m., which means I’m wide awake at 4:00 a.m. As for one of my dearest pals, she relies on EXERCISE to cure her blues. I’m hoping to join her in the P90X revolution very soon.
In the meantime, I’ll stick to my vice. Music.
How do you FIX your mood?